So, one thing I’ve learned about myself is that I have no patience for success. If something isn’t popping off as soon as I start or there is no immediate gratification, i instantly question if I’m supposed to be doing this at all or what am I doing wrong. But the one thing I've learned, is most success is not like the lottery where you were living paycheck to paycheck on Monday and on Tuesday you can have almost anything in the world. It is a marathon. It is a constant grind, that requires an insurmountable amount of grit. You have to be willing take the losses that add up to the win. Me, I don’t possess any of that. At least not at first. I was all about the excuse of distraction or some sort of immediate need the took precedence over my dream. But I can honestly say to you, as I write this, that isn’t the case any longer. In this year alone I finally finished my play and are in the polishing stage, I have started a podcast, and launched a blog and have started my first novel. That’s a lot to focus on, but the journey is so worth it. And I have no where near arrived but at least I have left the station. I’m still learning a lot and I’m okay with that because life is about growth and I am so excited about the possibilities.
Now, I know you are asking how did go from being such lazy good for nothing excuse maker to putting so much focus and energy into my dreams? I’m glad you asked as I shall tell you. It was a decision. I didn’t see some ted talk or hear a sermon or read some fancy blog post about going for your dreams because honestly, I have heard them all and I was still a good for nothing tv, movie watching bumb. But when I had become depressed and and found the root of my depression, from that sunken place I looked up and around me and realized that the mundane 9 to 5 grind with no gain not only in my pocket but in my soul was no longer good enough. It was a decision. Yes, I will continue to look for other jobs that pay more until I can start getting checks from my passion. Honestly, sometimes things has have been so tight, I probably have every reason to work two jobs. But I want to invest in the things hat really make me happy. So, or I can have a kick ass budget working with what I already have, work the overtime when necessary, and take the time and focus on what matters to me most.
The next part was being around like minded people. I don’t have a big huge circle of friends, but everyone in it is working towards something greater and that feeds their souls. Whether its entrepreneurship, novels, community activist, they are busy trying to achieve their fullest potential. And When everybody around you is talking about what strides they’ve made and how this door opened and all the connections they are making, it will make your nonproductive behind get up and want to have something to talk about too. At the least, it will have you evaluating your own life and start exploring whether what you're doing now, is what you want to do it for the rest of your life. It’s like being married. Can you go to sleep and wake up everyday for the rest of your life going doing what you are doing now? Punching a clock to help someone else be wealthy. If not get divorce and marry your passion.
Lastly, support. I have the most supportive friends and family members. They are always checking on me and making sure I’m remaining focus no matter what comes my way. I have some bomb friends and wouldn’t trade them for anything. Most importantly, they are always looking to lend a helping hand. I don’t care who you are or what you are trying to do, it’s always nice when someone is there to support and help you.
I leave you with this quote: “Over time, grit is what separates fruitful lives from aimlessness.” - John Ortberg.